At times I find it difficult to come in touch with my motivation and inspiration. Maybe, it’s the apathetic vibe of autumn, or maybe, I think too much. When I’d hear “you think too much”, I’d always smile (superiorly, of course) – but now I ask myself if this is not always such an advantage as I used to see it.
Sometimes I find myself in this philosophical mood when everything seems just a fuss, with no meaning. For example, when I say it would be good to do more blogging again, there is this voice in me that says: “And what is the meaning of it? Why do you want to do it? To get popular once? We have discarded this idea long time ago. To build a community? And what will it give you? Just to communicate? But there are other options to do it in real life – and you know, you would prefer it in real life”. And then the apathy crawls in, and I think: “Ah, whatever. Really, why bother?” Do you know this feeling?
But then there are other times – when I feel inspired and want to do more and more. I’ve discovered that if I do something inspiring, that creates a sparkle in other areas too. Like when I am cooking some creative meal – I am suddenly feel moved to write a blog post. Or if I do a research of the interior stores – I want to jump to my feet, grab my camera and take pictures. It feels like there is a creative centre in my brain, and if it gets started for one thing, the energy starts flowing and spilling over in other things too.
Sometimes I think that I have to start things – like post on the blog – not for some result in the future, but for a process itself. The process that has a capacity to engage me. And then it becomes the meaning behind it. This engagement. The process itself is a goal. But it doesn’t always feel motivating enough. So I have to slightly push myself towards it. And then it starts rolling.
Slightly pushing works sometimes better than waiting for inspiration. Because muse can be a capricious being, coming and leaving as it wishes. But it seems that the inspiration, like appetite, comes in the process of eating. In this case, in the process of doing. As our brain has to save energy, it only gives it to the important tasks. But when I do something – I get more energy. While if I sit musing about something, I can find myself less motivated and with less energy.
So, maybe, the solution is to ask less philosophical questions, and just do something. Doing is a state of higher energy, and it always feels happier to me. Maybe, to help my motivation I just have to start any tiny project (like writing a post, cooking, going on a photowalk) and see where it leads me. Instead of trying to view it from the bird’s eye view. Maybe, there is no bird’s eye view in this case? Only the path on the ground where I find myself, doing my steps.
Maybe, the creative living is just about this. Doing your steps in the dirt, in the sand, in whatever road condition you find yourself in.
Do you have your own secret keys to open up your motivation and sparkle your inspiration? What have you learnt about it? What do you do?
P. S. The pictures are from one colorful street in Stavanger, Norway. I think, it’s called Strandgaten, but I am not sure.